A Widow’s Story is a heart-wrenching memoir by Joyce Carol Oates. Oates usually tends to write novels of fiction, but for the first time in her writing career, readers are able to relate to her through personal experience. She begins this novel by recounting the final weeks of her husband’s life- time mostly spent in the hospital. It is important to know that the death of Ray, her husband of forty seven years, was somewhat unexpected. He become ill very quickly due to an abrasive case of pneumonia. Oates does a wonderful job of conveying her thought process throughout Ray’s illness. There was some level of denial, as no one can ever be truly prepared to lose someone they loved so completely.
Although Oates does explain how her husband passed and the moments leading up to his untimely death, she spends most of the book recalling how she dealt with the aftermath of Ray’s death and how she needed to learn how to cope with the loss of her husband. Oates does not focus on the technicalities of writing in this book, rather she focuses on the heart of human emotion. Sections of this book are broken into chapters of the exact emails between the author and her friends surrounding the time of Ray’s death.
I am fortunate to have never lost someone I was so close to, but I feel the pain and confusion that Oates experienced through her writing. The intended audience for A Widow’s Story is likely to be aimed towards widows and widowers, but I believe any demographic can sympathize or empathize with this story. One of the things that has stuck out the most to me while reading this book is Oates’s impeccable memory. One of my closest friends lost her father a few years ago and she always tells me how she remembers very few things about being in the hospital, as it was all such a blur of many emotions. Oates makes it known that she felt somewhat dazed when dealing with the aftermath of Ray’s death, but she remembers every feeling and even specific people she encountered in the hospital. It is as if nothing has never felt more real, or surreal, to the author.
Oates repeats the phrase “at the wrong time” frequently throughout this memoir. She describes the events leading to her husband’s death as always occurring at the wrong time. Such as a phone call in the middle of the night from the Princeton Medical Center. I think this also reitterates the idea that no one is ever prepared for the death of a loved one, when it comes to losing a spouse nothing will happen at the right time. There could never be a right time for such a thing. She seems to just be going through the motions when planning for the funeral, every movement made and every word uttered was mechanical. It is strange how someone can feel so overwhelmed by emotion while simultaneously feeling so hollow. Cardiopulmonary arrest seems like common medical jargon, but those words have more of an effect on Oates more so than any other phrase. “ A widow cannot defend herself against the most extraordinary thoughts. For a widow has learned that the ordinary can so quickly turn extraordinary, and the extraordinary ordinary.” (p. 103)
One of the biggest struggles for the author throughout this story is finding purpose within herself, even in the permanent absence of her husband. It is hard to imagine a life without someone who has always been such a huge part of your own. I have not been alive for even half of the time Oates was with her husband so I should not be able to comprehend the pain of her loss. However, I feel connected and truly touched by the difficult experience she had to endure. The author does an excellent job of conveying her mix of emotions without leaving the reader confused or lost. This must be a daunting task for a writer- to remain clear and understandable when you are feeling anything but.
This memoir was a heavy topic but the last lines provide a sense of hope amidst a time of chaos; “If I have lost the meaning of life, and the love of my life, I might still find small treasured things amid the spilled and pilfered trash.” (p 415)
Oates, Joyce Carol (2011). A Widow’s Story. New York, NY: HarpersCollins Publishers. $14.99. 978-0-06-202050-5